Summer re awakening

Well, I can't believe that summer is almost over. I'll be honest, I am clinging onto it for just a little longer as I absolutely love the warmth and the sunshine. I think that comes from living abroad for such a long time. Also, being self-employed means I can be there for the children, and we can enjoy lazy mornings and al fresco breakfasts!

Anyway, our summer was kicked off with our first trip abroad for years, and our destination was the beautiful island of Ibiza, Santa Eulària to be more precise.

The moment we landed on this magical island, I instantly felt my nervous system relax! Previously, I had been feeling all sorts of weird and wonderful symptoms of what I thought was perimenopause, the main one being dizziness, which literally just appeared at any given moment. But on the 2nd day of our trip, it disappeared and, touch wood, hasn't come back! I stopped all of my supplements, mainly because I was scared of being stopped and searched at the airport with a massive bag of white powder and then screaming, "It's just collagen!" as I was dragged away by security!

I think just being in the sunshine, laughing, and playing with my family did me so much good. We didn't need to look at the time (except 3 PM sangria), just being in our own little bubble with the space to breathe and connect with what is important.

Which then leads me to my spiritual experience that I had whilst I was there. I feel like I need to add that I have a deep connection to Spain. I do feel at home when I'm there, as that is exactly what it was for around 10 years.

Anyway, everyone would sleep in most mornings, and because I am an early riser, I took the opportunity to either go to the gym, have a walk, or run on the beach.

One morning, I was awake particularly early (6 AM) and decided I would attempt to run to the beach that was a little further away. It was already really hot, but I gave it a go. I lasted about 15 minutes running, but my feet were so blistered and sore from the damn shoes I had brought with me! So I walked the rest of the way.

When I arrived at the beach, it was practically empty, apart from a girl meditating and an older gentleman swimming. As I was walking, I thought I would just go and sit at the water's edge for a minute and just take in the gorgeous view and the scent of the sea!

As I sat down cross-legged on the beach, I began to do a few yoga stretches so I didn't look like a weirdo. Then all of a sudden, I stopped. I felt this huge wave of emotion rise up from my toes all the way to my eyes as tears filled them. It was so sudden, this all-consuming grief, sadness, relief, happiness, contentment, quite literally all of the feels just pouring out of my body. My silent tears turned to full-body sobs. I looked around to make sure no one was looking but also not caring if they were. The older gentleman just looked over at me and nodded politely as if to say, "Yes, we get this a lot." It didn't feel like it was a lack of compassion but more that he understood that I needed the space. I felt as if everything that I had gone through over the past few years was being felt and released in that moment, my body knowing it was safe to do so. The sobs became quieter, but the tears were still flowing, but more gently, so I decided to stand and dip my toe in the sea. I felt a sudden urge to anoint myself, to cleanse each chakra before I immersed myself fully into her depths. As I emerged, I felt as if all the weight I had been carrying had been felt, released, and then my body renewed and cleansed! It was absolutely euphoric. After that, I allowed my body to just float, and as I looked up to the clear blue sky, I saw that Mama Moon was still high in the sky and the sun was coming up. Masculine and feminine in complete unison. The tears stopped, and I allowed the full weight of my body to let go. Every muscle, every cell, every part of me fully relaxed. Because for this moment, I had nothing to worry about, no one to please, nothing to do, and no one to answer to. It was my private meeting with Mama Earth, and I was going to embrace every second of it.

As I emerged from the sea, I literally felt like Pamela Anderson from Baywatch! I felt so powerful and feminine (I actually looked more like a bedraggled sea witch in running gear, but hey, haha).

I took my time to walk back to the hotel just as the town was starting to wake fully, the smell of fresh pastries floating up my nostrils, the beads of seawater slowly drying on my skin with a smile so wide that literally everyone I passed smiled back at me (probably thought I had been snorting my collagen!). It was just pure bliss.

Back at the hotel, my children and husband still snoring soundly as I showered off the sand from every crevice, I honestly felt reborn, content with my life purpose at the forefront of my mind. THE REST OF THE HOLIDAY CONTINUED WITH THIS FEELING. JUST BEING WITH MY FAMILY, LAUGHING, PLAYING, EATING GOOD FOOD ( EXCEPT ANYA) MAKING FRIENDS, MET ANOTHER MAMA AROUND THE POOL AND I THINK WE ARE SOUL MATES HAHA .WE JUST HAD THE BEST TIME AND THE WHOLE HOLIDAY AS WELL AS THAT EXPERIENCE WILL LIVE IN MY HEART!!

Thank you for reading, my loves... Full disclosure, this is the 2nd time I wrote this as Wix did not save my first draft!

Love and peace always,

Jessie xxxxxx